5 weeks

Not much to update this week, and I guess it hasn't even been a week since my last post anyway.  My symptoms are very slowly increasing and pretty different from last time.  I'm starting to get tired every afternoon (ok, that's about the only part that isn't different) and I take a nap on my days off work.  I get teary-eyed really easily.  I've started to feel just a tiny bit nauseous around bedtime and have had some really mild heartburn a couple times.  Very unlike last time, it takes a lot for me to feel full.  I just want to keep eating!  The biggest thing about all of this so far is just that it's really hard not to tell people!  

Apparently this baby is about the size of a small pea now and growing quickly.  Even though there's no baby bump yet (and probably won't be for quite a while), here's the 5 week photo.  Yes, there is a bump, but that's just a whole lot of bloating!

  

Oh, one more thing.  Those of you who have been pregnant (more specifically, those of you who have tried to get pregnant) are probably familiar with desperately searching for that second line on the pregnancy test.  Although I thought there was no way possible I'd get pregnant this cycle, I still got the positive pretty darn early.  Luckily, it doesn't matter and a line is a line, no matter how faint!  This was the first test I took last week.

And, just for fun, I took a different (and less sensitive) test yesterday.

That's all for now!

-A

4 weeks, 2 days

Holy cow.  We successfully hid my pregnancy at Jaqua's wedding and our big party.  There were some awesome hosted drinks at the wedding, and it would be pretty strange for me to turn that down.  So, I got a few drinks and would pretend to drink (backwash, basically) and when John and Mari weren't looking Trevor would take a big swig.  It appeared no one noticed, phew!

As for the party, that was going to be a little more difficult.  I drank water for the first few hours, telling everyone I overdid it at the wedding and needed to hydrate a bit.  I truly was tired so pulling off the sluggish hungover thing wasn't too difficult.  After a while, I started drinking.  The master plan was that I had a cooler of NA beer in our bedroom closet, and when I would go to the bathroom, I would also go into our bedroom and refill my own cup.  

Luckily, no one suspected.  At least I don't think anyone did.  I didn't get offered any shots, played beer pong with my NA beer and even switched to water at the end of the night so I "wouldn't get the spins."  In some ways I may be a bit paranoid about people figuring it out, but everyone's always on the lookout.  Rhya looked at me funny twice throughout the night thinking something I had said meant baby on the way.  Both times I just held up my beer and said something to the effect of "ahh... no!"  But, if any of you felt neglected or ignored at the welcome home party, my apologies.  The more I ignored you, the harder it was to keep it a secret from you.  Consider it a compliment.

I look like I have about a 4 month pregnant belly thanks to being bloated (pregnancy+eating all the awesome food people brought).  I'm tired, but we've been on the go since Thursday afternoon so that could explain it, too.  I'm pretty gassy, but I have eaten a lot of food and did have some NA beers so that could explain it.  My sense of smell is pretty fierce and after a big party like this I wish that weren't the case.  I feel like our whole house smells like a rotten, moldy, beer-soaked foot.  All in all my symptoms aren't too bad yet, but I'm just getting started.  It's interesting how different these pregnancies are already.  Last time this time (or even earlier, I got a positive test at 3.5 weeks) I was so miserably sick feeling, exhausted and had no appetite.  This time I'm already having to really watch what I eat because I just don't want to stop!

I'm procrastinating taking a belly photo because I'm so bloated, but I don't think that will be going away anytime soon.  There won't actually be any baby belly to see for a while, but I'm interested to see how it grows.  I may eat my words once I start getting bigger!

Got the first doctor appointment scheduled for June 20 and I'm pretty darn excited Trevor will be able to come along.  I'm very anxious to see our doctor and make sure everything is okay.  I'm almost positive June 20 was the exact day of our appointment last year where we found out we were pregnant with twins.  My gut tells me it's just one, but I'm also anxious to ask her "so, how many?" 

-A 

Here we go again! (4 weeks)

I don't think it's any secret that Trevor and I miscarried last June (2011).  I was carrying twins and to those of you who didn't know, sorry you're reading it here.  It's sad, always will be, but we're doing okay.  Actually...we're doing great!  We're already onto round two!

Here's how it's gone so far... Oh, and I might add, we'll be putting all the mushy gushy pregnancy stuff here, so proceed at your own risk :)  I realize not everyone thinks that stuff is cool so I'll mostly be keeping it off my Facebook and the other blog.

Trevor got home on May 4, 2012, a couple days too late to give this baby stuff a try...or so we thought.  We literally got pregnant the day he got home.  This past week, my period wasn't coming, but I didn't feel any different and took a test (Dollar Tree tests are the best by the way-seriously, plus they're cheap!) and it was negative.  Still no period, took another test-negative.  Yesterday Trevor and I went to Jon & Moe's for their groom's dinner.  Trevor stayed up there and is golfing with Jon right now.  On the way home I thought to myself, just take another test, who cares they're only $1.  So I did.  Now I've gotten pretty good at creating lines where they aren't, but this was no hallucination.  I am pregnant.  I called Trevor and told him I had a question and I didn't want Jon or Moe to hear his answer so he moved to another room.  Then I just told him.  This is all very surreal because we thought we had missed the chance this month.  So I took a photo of the test which makes the faint line even harder to see and sent it to him.  Three photos to be exact.  No response.  I'm in panic mode.  So, I text it to Tosha who has become a pretty good line inspector herself.  She confirmed it-two lines!  Then Trevor responded and agreed (I thought for sure he would say he didn't see it).  Trevor even asked Jon (a pretty logical dude and an OB-GYN at that) and he saw two lines, too.  WOW.  This is happening.

So, for fun, I took another one this morning and it was just a tad darker.  For those of you who have never tried to get pregnant, peeing on a stick may become a hobby (especially at only $1 a pop) when your time comes.  I did the math and I'm exactly 4 weeks today.  I never knew how pregnancy was actually calculated until I was pregnant myself.  Mini lesson: day 1=the first day of your period, approx day 14 or 2 weeks=ovulation and by the time you can actually take a test and find out you're pregnant you're about 4 weeks along.

Naturally, with everything we've been through, I'm nervous!  But I already feel different this time around (which may or may not mean a darn thing), so I'm just letting myself be excited about it all.  No symptoms so far (in the 10 hours I've known haha) other than some very minor cramping.  And, yes, that's normal.  I already called to get a referral to the OB we had last time because she was super amazing all around.  My next big pregnancy task is figuring out how to hide not drinking at Jon and Moe's wedding tonight and Trevor's welcome home party tomorrow.  Wish me luck!

-A